Day 16

As if ...today never was.
Whatever it was that today was supposed to be, it wasn't.
Like there's no tomorrow.
Like there's no life that I live, let alone "the plan".
I just ignored it all...


I don't know what happened. I woke up regularly, went to work regularly, worked, came home... 
Then some friends came over and we just hung out the whooole afternoon, had coffees and lunch and immense amounts of laughter and some great talks, saw numerous Youtubes, exchanged some fresh gossip :) but some life wisdom too (oh, I love how smart my friends are! :* :*)!


Now, this was no decision. It wasn't "I'm gonna do what I gotta do today", nor "I don't give a funk for today!", that's what's the most puzzling about it!
Even while writing this my mindset is totally out of where it was in last 15 days. 


And I kinda like it. Like I left my life and went some place else.


I do still have the exam on my mind, as the urgent/important and I'm freaking out about it a little bit... But, in the manner of my today's mood and apart from the exam, all the other things today were just irrelevant.
There were no life goals today for me, no achievements, no perspectives, no hustling... 
Today I just lived.


And since I don't have any fulfilled agenda to share with you, here's some great music I was listening to.


Until tomorrow,
Keep it real!

Lana Del Rey - Blue Jeans (Penguin Prison Remix)

We Found Love - Rihanna feat. Calvin Harris (Boyce Avenue piano acoustic cover)

Lena Kovačević - By Your Side

YELLE - Comme Un Enfant (official music video)

Robyn - Be Mine (acoustic cover by Tijana & Robyn - Be Mine (acoustic cover by Tijana & Branko)

Day 15

Here I am at the exact middle of my little project. The days behind me seem like they have flown by, but the thought of as many awaiting is not comforting. Though, I'm looking forward to it.

Here's today:
07:00 woke up
08:00 - 13:30 job 1 (breakfast)
13:30 - 14:30 lunch
14:30 - 15:30 chillin'
15:30 - 16:00 guitar practice
16:00 - 18:00 writing the CV
18:00 - 19:30 hangin' online (dinner)
19:30 - 22:00 studying
22:00 - 22:30 blog update


Today was really busy at the store. Not only did I came home late, I was also pretty overwhelmed with all that was happening there and tired when I returned.


I have this exam in few days and even though the "rule" (Yuck! I hate rules!) is to stick to the schedule even under that circumstance, I couldn't help thinking about how much energy I'll need for studying later in the afternoon, so I didn't force myself to strictly do everything according to the plan. I needed to save a peace of mind.


So, apart from checking if there's anything that urgently needs to be done with job 2, I did nothing more about it today. I certainly would if I was not back home so late...


I switched places for some other activities, like spending time online and studying. And I've decided not to ride my bike today so I could go to bed a bit earlier and get some sleep, tomorrow I really need to study productively and try and achieve all the rest there is.


Until tomorrow,
Stay strong!

Day 14

My sunny Monday:

07:00 woke up, morning exercise
07:30 - 12:00 job 1 (breakfast)
12:00 - 13:30 lunch
13:30 - 15:00 job 2
15:00 - 16:00 guitar practice
16:00 - 18:00 CV writing
18:00 - 20:00 studying
20:30 - 22:00 seeing a friend
22:30 - 23:30 bike ride


As you can see, it was a pretty successful day! 


Though I went to bed later than I should, I managed to have social life, too, so I don't regret it!
Now, the hours were not exactly as punctual as stated - I didn't want to go into details too much - but I'm aware of it and I don't like it. So, it's a note to self.
And I'm supposed to first ride a bike, then have social life, not vice versa.
Also, I needed half an hour to get to the university, so I wasn't exactly studying for full two hours, but even those 30 minutes was spend in order to study.


Yeah, as you can see, I had little morning gymnastics! :) I just felt like it. You know, moving more than my legs while I still sit on my butt riding a bike :)
I still feel like it, but when it comes to 9 or 10 pm, after fourteen hours of full-speed engagement, I can't even conceive doing more than sitting on my butt and spinning, honestly!
Though, that may be a mistake. Maybe after that long day I should exercise. Or maybe I shouldn't exercise before going to bed at all? Ah, all that questions...


One more reason why today was a big day:
I started writing the CV!! 
It took me two hours to finish "conferences & seminars" section alone, while I unraveled all the accreditations and put them in reverse time line, then described each conference I have ever been on in just a few words... Man! But, one down, four-five more to go. It's done! 
And, you know, nail by nail, board by board, I'll make it all happen... I should've called it "Building the CV", not writing :)

Weekend: Day 12 and Day 13

What a lazy weekend!
The whole Saturday I spent in bed, watching series and playing the guitar.


On Sunday (today) I woke up pretty late. As I said earlier on Twitter, I wasn't able to get up earlier, I had some really important dreams to dream :)

Tomorrow is the start of the new week. My energy and motivation are at the average level... I'm not completely down, but I'm not eager either.

I guess it's just Sunday.

Sundays are meant to be melancholic... 

Day 11

Not much was done today:


07:30 woke up
08:00 - 12:30 job 1
12:30 - 15:00 preparing and having lunch
15:00 - 16:30 playing the guitar


The rest of the time I really don't know how I spent. I guess I just wasted it, chatting to members of my family that I live with, or washing my hair, getting ready...
At around 20 h, I went to a birthday party...   

Day 10

Ah... my day:

07:30 woke up
(breakfast)
08:00 - 12:00 job 1
12:00 - 13:00 blogging
13:00 - 15:00 job 2
15:00 - 16:00 (lunch)
16:00 - 17:30 guitar playing
18:00 - 20:30 uni
20:30 - 21:22 blog update


Job 1 and job 2 were fine. I did what I had to do. 
Then when the afternoon came, I felt very tired, but not (only) sleepy tired, but overloaded tired. Like, "my brain hurts!!" tired. Then I thought: although I spent my time for guitar playing having lunch leisurely, if I do play for some time, it'll relax me and I'll carry on. So I played. It didn't do much, I was still stressed. But I still went to uni in order to study, i.e. to listen to lecture there. But then, my friend fellow student and I, like in the good old days, fled from the lecture and went for coffee!! :) 


And now I came home, I'm writing this post and going to bed!
Maybe more sleep will help me be less stressed tomorrow.


I also skipped dinner today because I had late lunch, just for the record.


Here's music I discovered that did help today. Too bad I didn't find it earlier...

This guy is from Iceland and is 25!! A wonder-worker...

So, what do I have to say about today's day..?

Well, I'm not satisfied. I feel like I'm trying hard but not making it! But, I'm not giving up. If there was a thing I could do to make it a better day today, I would have done it. I know I gave my best. I know I don't stand where I wanna be. I'll keep trying.

Today is already in past and beating myself up about it now, well, certainly won't do any good to my taking-it-easy.

Right?

Day 9

My life is a sinusoid. Ups and downs. I just don't know how to distribute my energy to equal parts. I run and speed, super-productive, five things at a time (of course, all said is subjective perception of states mentioned as they happen, not objectively measured)... and then there just comes a moment when I'm saturated and useless. Even nodding my head feels hard... and I just have no energy, regardless my intentions.


Practice has shown that, if I switch off and give myself a break, I will recharge and be able to kick...bottoms again. :) And that's simply how I roll. I need to mess up so I could have something to fix. :)

Jason Mraz said something about it, in words and melodies, in his own manner. If you feel like skipping the words, go directly to 3:30 :)

The period within last two days may have been the time I needed to relax... which I didn't really do, but I still allowed myself to retreat from the schedule (to make it more accurate, there was nothing I could do, but morally I was allowing myself). I had 5 hours of sleep in the middle of the afternoon and was procrastinating over putting together my CV for whole two days! I was even out with friends on a workday and I was reading a book..


And it turned out to be a good thing. I was bursting with energy today! I was literally hopping from one job to another. And with the help of few cups of coffee, I made it trough the whole day as follows:


07:30 woke up (breakfast)
08:00 - 12:30 job 1
(lunch)
13:00 - 16:00 job 2
16:00 - 18:00 guitar playing
(dinner)
18:00 - 20:30 studying
20:30 - 21:15 blog update
21:15 - 22:45 riding a bike


I did again skip looking for Masters, for which the first step is to write that CV. Looking for a scholarship over all is hard work. Not only it takes up a lot of time, it requires a lot of energy and you need to give in to the whole thing. Being unproductive as I was in past few days, things piled up, I needed to done-check a few things from my "to do" list first, so that I can properly commit to that resume of mine in the near future. Hopefully the future starts tomorrow. :)


On the other hand, I played guitar for two hours and was pretty productive at both jobs.
However, the day ended stressfully, after all the information going trough my head.


I still fail to catch up with the schedule completely. I still struggle to have enough sleep. Routine is still a hassle, not an ease.

Day 8

Today was a total mess-up.

07:00 (hardly) woke up
07:30 - 12:30 job 1 (breakfast)
12:30 - 13:00 (lunch)
13:00 - 15:00 job 2
15:00 - 20:00 sleeping
20:00 - 21:00 reading a book
(dinner)
21:00 - 22:00 hangin' online
22:00 - 23:00 riding a bike
23:30 - 01:00 out with friends


I went to sleep in the afternoon because, again, I had not enough sleep last night, but my plan was not to sleep through the whole day..
The concept was totally lost today.
And I feel lost.
It's like there's million things piling up and I'm doing non of them. Like domino effect: for example, I know I've missed searching for Masters yesterday, so today while doing job 2 I was thinking about that instead of focusing on what I'm supposed to do.
And it takes me nowhere.
If only I didn't feel the guilt for missing out on what's already (not) done and just go on.


I'm not sure about anything now, but I think tomorrow I'll just try all over again.
Maybe I got lulled and stopped paying good attention on how important it is to stick to the schedule.

Day 7

...but waking up early in the morning didn't mean going to bed on time! Moreover, I finished weekend exhausted.


Let me put it in other words: I started the week exhausted!


Monday. My first day at work.

07:00 woke up
(breakfast)
07:30 - 12:00 job 1
12:00 - 13:00 (lunch)
13:00 - 15:30 job 2
15:30 - 17:30 sleeping (dinner)
18:00 - 20:00 studying (uni)
21:00 - 22:00 riding a bike
22:00 - still blogging
I just couldn't do it. Couldn't sit at the computer anymore, and especially go back to that CV writing that was, with the grin of inevitability, waiting for me there. 


So it was: I will either sleep for two hours, than go to uni, study, ride a bike and blog afterwards (blogging was especially demanding, since I was owing two posts), or trail around the whole day. The big idea was to sleep in the afternoon to get through with the day the best way possible, then seize the bed and finally get some proper rest.


The reality is, blogging is demanding, so here I am, at 2 a.m. still writing. I guess tomorrow I'll have to skip guitar playing and searching for Master again and have a nap, than really go to bed earlier.


With this two blog posts I did a big job. I expect it to be easier tomorrow.


Here's today's soundtrack:

 I don't like this song, but it tells what needs to be heard.

Monday. Blue Monday...
I had this conversation yesterday with my father and my uncle. The usual Sunday lunchtime conversations. The usual standing points: them - from planet Earth, me - from planet One-life-to-live.


With the intention of, I tend to believe, giving me an advice on what is the best for me to do with my life, it ended up with me hearing about how I obviously haven't achieved anything in life, since I don't have a full-time job. The years I spent studying are wasted if I don't want to continue doing what I've studied. I'm a lost case if I don't know where I wanna be in ten years time and, since I don't know, I better get back on the ground from the clouds I'm in and find a real job, and start working instead of fooling around, 9 to 5, like all the rest of normal people.


It ended up with me talking about not giving up dreams, about how it is never too late, about always having choice in life and being in control over your destiny, but having to have guts to do so - talking to walls. No, I was talking to generation, cultural, lifestyle, technological gap...


If it wasn't the people I care about, it wouldn't hurt as much. I didn't feel like waking up in the morning and going for "regular work" after having that conversation.
It destroyed my Monday. If it wasn't for this project, that is giving me a sense of direction, it would've destroyed maybe much more.

Weekend: Day 4, Day 5 and Day 6

The first weekend. Oh, lucky me! Three days long one!
I spent it at a conference on blogging, in lovely nature of Fruška Gora.

Here's a photo I made on my way to the conference.

How was my weekend considering the routine...and what are the consequences to it!?

Having started this project gave me an incredible drive and feeling of confidence. The feeling I get when there's a goal that I see ahead of me and all that's left is to achieve it! Just seeing it and spending time in trying to reach it is enough to give you a feeling of life not wasted, but on the contrary! 


One of my favorite tweets says something like: "I have it all planed, now I just need to not realize it!". Exactly how most of my plans in life had finished. There you have a content of my plan and, there you have my life too, but on a slightly different wave length.

First of all, the perception of time, my God! I would, for instance, totally miss out time to actually arrive from point A to point B, or would make a plan to study for 10 hours a day, or would think that I can, if I try well enough, resist everything that brings joy, like seeing friends, going out, just hangin' - for a higher goal...
On top of it all, I wouldn't project myself actually spending time like that (if I did, I would have seen how unsustainable it was). I would just spend time feeling guilty for not doing what I'm supposed to instead of doing what I felt like doing... So then I wouldn't even do what I feel like! At the end, it turns out you're sitting on your arse all day, busy with nibbling your nails over all the things that woulda, coulda, shoulda...

Before putting together the schedule, this time I was determined to make it a good one. A real one, which considered giving a good thought to what it is I wanna spent my time on, what it is that I don't wanna stop doing, what it is that I have to start doing...and how much time it requires, sleeping, preparing food, not teleporting, eating, and breathing included!


Having made that kind of a plan, I'm starting to believe that spontaneity is a matter of nurture.


I officially, formally, had no obligations during the weekend whatsoever and that's how I was acting. But it felt like a waste of time. Why is it that there's an hour to eat, when I'm used to...well, eating while scrolling my mouse?! What do I do with all that time? And just how much things I could have done... !

I obviously did catch a certain tempo..

But I'm not giving up on weekends, no! No plans there still, I don't know where this will go. I don't wanna end up blaming the circumstances or deciding in the middle that the plan was not well built. That's why I need to have that reserve time.
And for leisure, too.


Good aspects this weekend: I woke up early all three mornings. Not exactly 7 a.m. but it was an actual morning, even after the night out and even when there was nothing in particular to do that early.

Bad aspects: diet. I was so not sticking to how I should eat! The reason, or excuse, was that I was not at home, but at a hotel. Reality is, I could've still chosen what to eat.
It just felt wrong. So wrong that I don't feel like repeating the same thing; even the feeling of secretly being happy for not taking care was not worth it.

In final words, the weekend was good but I was hardly waiting for it to stop so I could go back to my schedule and all the things that - I realised - made me feel so content.

...Which is confusing. This is supposed to be hard.

Day 3

Tiredness continues... I had less than 8 hours of sleep last night again and I don't think my body and my mind got used to having to be engaged this intensively. The stress about having to watch the time all the time that I talked about yesterday - well, today it has proven itself even more.

But, you know.. I was expecting this. Not only this! I am expecting even bigger obstacles to overcome and temptations to resist. I was expecting my will to start giving me doubts and start persuading me how maybe this all really doesn't have that much of a point. Trying to convince me to "just this once, chill out... have a cigarette in peace... and dedicate the whole hour to blogging! Because, really, not riding a bicycle this once won't change anything...". You know, the usual quitter's voices in the head. But, I just looked to left today and said: "I was expecting you, you little devil!" and cuffed it off! :)

What makes me sad is that I literally have no time to think about this during the day, to contemplate the processes, and I so much wished to! Not to mention I have no time "to stop"... :)
I'll see how the weekend goes, maybe my mind will open up. If not, expect more blog updates even after 15th December! :)


Something new: things I run into and watch randomly, like, some irrelevant YouTubes or articles, friends photos and such - I can feel piling up! But, having very precise schedule, I just "mark as read" them, or ignore and reject them without having second thoughts. And it feels double-natured. On one hand, not only that I feel like I'm missing out, but it feels like I'm forbidden to watch whatever I feel like watching (oh, and I definitely do not react on prohibits with obedience! If you don't believe me, ask my parents :))!  Like there's no more leisure Internet browsing, and it frustrates me a bit.
On the other hand, it is so relieving!! No.. no! "x" ... nop! Not interested.. "x"

I now know exactly what important stuff to me are! I gave it a thought, I set the goal, I know where I'm heading and I know how much I wanna go there! And I finally can just click "x" to all the rest!! It feels so good!
Random browsing is brilliant! Just being lead by your instincts and genuine interests can get you amazing places! But, having only 16 active hours a day (which is so much, but so little at the same time... I hope I'll get back to it in one of the next posts), I'd rather do what I know will take me somewhere for now. I'm curious to see what will happen with my informedness and versatility in a week or two.

Also, Glee goes on my nervs! I'm gonna have to change the show to watch while riding a bike! Any suggestions?

So, here's my today's timeline:

07:00 yup! woke up - again! :) (breakfast)
07:30 - 10:15 studying
10:15 - 11:00 watching TV O.O
11:00 - 12:00 studying
12:00 - 13:00 (lunch)
13:00 - 15:30 job 2

16:00 - 18:00 looking for scholarship
18:00 - 20:00 studying (uni)
21:00 - 22:00 riding a bike
22:00 - 23:45 blog update

I again didn't make it to play guitar today. Two hours for job 2 today flew by, I made it to do so little, so I just stepped on half an hour in guitar practicing time. So, I just played for 10 minutes maybe.
With scholarships it went really bad today, also. Half of the time I spent trying to keep my spine straight and not bend over under the weight of fatigue. The other half I was trying to put together my CV...eerie.

I have pangs of conscience when anything in my timetable is skipped. I feel like the day was not a success it was supposed to be. However, looking at today's day, apart from not playing the guitar, it was a good day. As it usually is, studying generates the feeling of ultimate fulfilment and I spent 5 hours in studying today! I'm not satisfied still, because the number of hours doesn't mean knowledge, and I'm not satisfied with my level of knowledge yet...

Tomorrow I am off for the school of blog and I'm looking forward to tomorrow's day having to be the one where there's no schedule! Hihi. TGIF!!


For the end, here's what my most favorite blogger, Seth Godin, sent me yesterday:


Worth it?

That's a question you hear a lot. "Was it worth it?"
Not certain what either "it" refers to, but generally we're saying, "was the destination worth the journey? Was the effort worth the reward?"
The thing about effort is that effort is its own reward if you allow it to be.
So the answer can always be "yes" if you let it.

What else to say than: Thank you, Mr. Godin, for, once again, saying just what I need to hear and in the way that I actually do hear it.

P.S. I'm sorry for the TLTR situation here! I don't know where it all came from, I though I had no time for thinking! :)

Day 2

My most dominant feeling today is tiredness!!
I slept 7 hours last night, and an hour and a half after I woke up :) and still, from 5 p.m. I could go to sleep any minute, with ease! Which is a good thing, considering my earlier state of never ever needing to sleep. Again, it's not easy being productive when you feel sleepy.

Speaking of productivity, I have to say that, so far, this system has done some good to my productivity. When having in mind that for all the things that I have to during the day there is time reserved, focusing on what's on right now is much easier. All the concern about what to do next, should I do this or that now, doing one thing but at the same time thinking of other stuff as well - all of that is gone. I have two hours for looking for scholarship and I'm very much focused on achieving as much as I can, because there are other things waiting... On the other hand, being time-limited doesn't stress me much because I am aware that tomorrow I'll have another two hours, too.
So, I've been satisfactorily productive today, with the exception of studying which is, of course, thing I like to do the least. I mean... it's corporate finance.

However, I was expecting that having to do something at a particular time will be much more stressful. The only thing that is stressful is having to constantly watch the time. But, actually doing stuff was, as I said, even more relieved this way.

So, here is today:


07:00 woke up (breakfast)
07:30 - 10:00 studying
10:00 - 11:30 sleeping again
11:30 - 12:00 social networks
12:00 - 13:00 (lunch)
13:00 - 15:30 job 2
16:00 - 18:00 looking for a scholarship
18:00 - 18:30 (dinner)
18:30 - 19:00 watching TV with dad
19:00 - 21:00 blogging
21:00 - 22:00 riding a bike
22:00 - 23:00 blogging


I compensated the time originally saved for job 1 for studying and more sleep, so I used the afternoon time for some other stuff, like watching TV with dad :) 
And I totally skipped playing guitar today :( Not cool, not cool... Which doesn't mean I'm not gonna make up for it tomorrow!


The most important thing, however, is that I woke up when I was supposed to and most of the things were done at the time when they should.
Even meals were exactly when they were supposed to be.


Now, the thing that really made my day are the reactions I get from friends. Thank you all very much for being supportive and telling me that what I do you think is cool! It makes it a little bit easier! :)
And a special mention to those who told me they are moved to make schedule of their own. :)


Sleeeep time!! Yes!
Over and out.

Day 1

This is today:

07:00 woke up
07:30 - 10:30 studying
10:30 - 11:30 blogging this blog
11:30 - 14:00 playing the guitar
14:00 - 16:00 blogging
16:00 - 18:00 Internet browsing
18:00 - 20:00 job 2 
20:00 - 20:30 social networks
20:30 - 21:00 blogging
21:00 - 22:00 riding a bike
22:00 and still - blogging

So obviously, I was blogging a lot today, which is all cool because I made it to do all the things that I should during the day and even more.


What is not cool is that I'm not in bed at 11 p.m.
Also, today's diet: I had only 2 meals, out of which lunch very late (16:00) and no dinner.

I'm hungry and tired and have no other, especially not big, conclusions.

What is project:routine and why..?

I've never had a routine in my life. OK, I've been on a few seminars and camps where there was a schedule or agenda to follow, but that can be considered as a taste of routine.
However, I consider myself being the kind of a person that functions better in spontaneity. You know, I make things happen. Never mind if I did it all by burning the midnight oil or by putting an hour a day for months in it.


So, I've been following this website about motivation and creativity and very often what they are advising people in order to stay creative is to catch the routine (here's one of them). Routine requires discipline. Discipline is good for our peace of mind, for our achievement, self esteem, which all lead to happiness. When having routine, you are in control of your time and by following it, you are on a certain path towards achieving your goals because, actually, you divided your goal on daily tasks, small steps. Yea, it all sounds good, but I'm doing fine even without the routine, thank you very much! You know, that's just not for me, I'm not that type! I'm a spontaneous, go-with-the-flow type, perfectly oriented in creative chaos of my own.
But, what bothers me the most is - can I do it? No matter my nature (which may as well be nurture!..), can I handle the discipline? Can I try and see what happens?


I saw this video yesterday, it's a TED talk where a guy is explaining how we can actually do anything in 30 days. And I thought - yea! That's what I'm gonna do! I never had routine in my life whatsoever. And I do have a few goals: I've got two jobs, an exam to pass, a need to have physical activity every day, interests in many subject as well as interest in having social life. So, let’s see what happens with my life if I change the way I spend my time on it. In next 30 days I'm going to commit myself to the same things at the same time every day.
And that's basically what this project is about.

project:routine

Duration: 15th November - 15th December 


Schedule:
07:00 wakey! wakey!, it's time for.. 
07:30 - 12:00 job 1 
13:00 - 15:00 job 2 
15:00 - 16:00 guitar playing 
16:00 - 18:00 browsing the Internet for further studies or a job
18:00 - 20:00 studying for the exam (on Mondays and Thursdays I'll go study at uni)
20:00 - 21:00 social networks
21:00 - 22:00 jogging (or riding indoor bicycle)
22:00 - 23:00 blog update


Now, there certainly are things I wanna have time for which are not in the schedule, like:


* watching movies
* reading books
* taking photos
* seeing friends
* concerts
* conferences, exhibitions, workshops
* walking in nature
but weekends are out off the schedule and this type of stuff I can do on weekends, or at the expense of my beauty sleep!
I probably will be invited by friends to hang out, there will be concerts to attend even during the week... And, at this point I decided that exceptions can't be made. Just like when you have certain duty which simply can't be postponed.
Renunciation appeals as the hardest part of this project. I started with the intention only to put things that I however want and have to do in order. The schedule is made out of things that I want to commit my time to. But the bitter de facto occurs: the day is too short. For some things there just isn't enough time. First things first. (My dear family and friends, this of course doesn't mean I won't be there for you if you need me! As I said, first things first! I was thinking more of leisure..) Luckily, I do have weekends to do all the rest of the things.
Spontaneity gets a little lost in having things over-arranged, but I guess you can't have spontaneous routine, can you! And finally, it is a 30-day project, which means I have to hold on only for a limited period of time.
Besides, having weekends without a schedule is challenging itself. After being completely without worries and responsibilities for two days (although, I have doubts in the latter), at every start of the new week (which is Monday) I have to get back on track, to establish routine again. Just like you often have to in real life, right?


Here are some other circumstances:

• The exam I have to pass is on 3rd December, which means that it is the middle of the project. This is important, firstly because usually pre-exam period is the time when I'm committed only to studying. That is, of course, because I never start studying on time, which means I have to switch to third gear that few days before the exam as my only chance to make it to prepare the material. In this scenario, and for the fist time in my life, it will have to be different. I will start studying earlier and I will study every day for 18 days before the exam but, in those few days right before the exam, the schedule will have to stay the same. Put in other words, even on Friday, 2nd December, I'll have only 2 hours to study and no more! Secondly, even after I do the exam, the schedule stays the same, which means that after I've just done one exam I'll start studying for the next one immediately, which also never happened before.

• There is a course about blogging that I will attend from 18th to 20th November. It includes weekend, which is fine, but a workday as well. I am aware that it is a deviation from the schedule, but I will however undergo it. Why? Well, that's what we normally have in life, don't we, things happening not according to our plan. The important bit is to "do watcha gotta do" but still be able to keep track of things! In my case, this means being away for 3 days, doing something totally out of the context, and then coming back and carrying on with all the responsibilities normal everyday life has. Especially with going away, every time you're going back your mind is in a different place.

• I start "job 1" on first next Monday. Which means that in first four days (including today) I have 4 and a half hours more daily. I will be using them to more of the stuff that are in the schedule, but also to finish some things which have to be done and were not yet done, because the whole idea about this came more as an epiphany than it is long planned. So it is possible that, in next three days I finish some of the afternoon activities in the morning, so I could have few hours in the afternoon to finish some other stuff. It is very important to do things every day at the same time, so I will be avoiding any changes in the schedule in the future the best I possibly can.

What I'd also like to stress is my diet. I'll have all three meals every day at the same time, which is:
07:00 - 07:30 breakfast
12:00 - 13:00 lunch
18:00 - 19:00 dinner
Also, on Mondays I eat only starchy foods, on Tuesdays only carbohydrates, on Wednesdays only proteins, on Thursdays only starchy foods, on Fridays only carbohydrates, on Saturdays only fruits and vegetables and on Sundays only proteins.
(By the way, this diet I've been practicing for some time now, so it's not newly established.)
So, I wanna see if there will be any changes in my physical condition after applying all this habits (have in mind an that 1 hour of exercise I have every night, too).


There will never be any updates after 11 p.m. That is because at 11 p.m. I'm supposed to be sleeping. I have generally had very irresponsible attitude about sleep and there had always been things I'd rather do than sleep. In this scenario, though, I'm not even going to put any pressure on that issue. If, after the whole day as it is, I have energy to still be up and about and get up every morning at 7 a.m, I'm just gonna let it. And the reason why I'm being like this is because lately I've been really pissed off - pardon my French - with my organism for not ever having the need to sleep, which made my mind extremely overloaded, and that's unpleasant!


So, this blog will be a diary for my little personal project and I will share my daily observations and experiences and, last but not the least, I will use it to record the progress.


Result:
Now, there is no expected result. I only expect to learn from this, about myself and general human habits and behavior.
I don't expect myself to change and become different from how I've been before in the way I do things.
I won't consider it a failure if, after the 30 days, I get back to all the old habits. Every psychological complex has it's own patterns of behaving and feeling comfortable. So, if I don't find this routine suitable for myself, I won't force it. But I, however, won't be the same after this 30 days, and knowledge and experience is what counts!


The only thing I would consider a failure is giving up before time.