My life is a sinusoid. Ups and downs. I just don't know how to distribute my energy to equal parts. I run and speed, super-productive, five things at a time (of course, all said is subjective perception of states mentioned as they happen, not objectively measured)... and then there just comes a moment when I'm saturated and useless. Even nodding my head feels hard... and I just have no energy, regardless my intentions.
Practice has shown that, if I switch off and give myself a break, I will recharge and be able to kick...bottoms again. :) And that's simply how I roll. I need to mess up so I could have something to fix. :)
The period within last two days may have been the time I needed to relax... which I didn't really do, but I still allowed myself to retreat from the schedule (to make it more accurate, there was nothing I could do, but morally I was allowing myself). I had 5 hours of sleep in the middle of the afternoon and was procrastinating over putting together my CV for whole two days! I was even out with friends on a workday and I was reading a book..
And it turned out to be a good thing. I was bursting with energy today! I was literally hopping from one job to another. And with the help of few cups of coffee, I made it trough the whole day as follows:
07:30 woke up (breakfast)
08:00 - 12:30 job 1
(lunch)
13:00 - 16:00 job 2
16:00 - 18:00 guitar playing
(dinner)
18:00 - 20:30 studying
20:30 - 21:15 blog update
21:15 - 22:45 riding a bike
I did again skip looking for Masters, for which the first step is to write that CV. Looking for a scholarship over all is hard work. Not only it takes up a lot of time, it requires a lot of energy and you need to give in to the whole thing. Being unproductive as I was in past few days, things piled up, I needed to done-check a few things from my "to do" list first, so that I can properly commit to that resume of mine in the near future. Hopefully the future starts tomorrow. :)
On the other hand, I played guitar for two hours and was pretty productive at both jobs.
However, the day ended stressfully, after all the information going trough my head.
I still fail to catch up with the schedule completely. I still struggle to have enough sleep. Routine is still a hassle, not an ease.
Practice has shown that, if I switch off and give myself a break, I will recharge and be able to kick...bottoms again. :) And that's simply how I roll. I need to mess up so I could have something to fix. :)
Jason Mraz said something about it, in words and melodies, in his own manner. If you feel like skipping the words, go directly to 3:30 :)
The period within last two days may have been the time I needed to relax... which I didn't really do, but I still allowed myself to retreat from the schedule (to make it more accurate, there was nothing I could do, but morally I was allowing myself). I had 5 hours of sleep in the middle of the afternoon and was procrastinating over putting together my CV for whole two days! I was even out with friends on a workday and I was reading a book..
And it turned out to be a good thing. I was bursting with energy today! I was literally hopping from one job to another. And with the help of few cups of coffee, I made it trough the whole day as follows:
07:30 woke up (breakfast)
08:00 - 12:30 job 1
(lunch)
13:00 - 16:00 job 2
16:00 - 18:00 guitar playing
(dinner)
18:00 - 20:30 studying
20:30 - 21:15 blog update
21:15 - 22:45 riding a bike
I did again skip looking for Masters, for which the first step is to write that CV. Looking for a scholarship over all is hard work. Not only it takes up a lot of time, it requires a lot of energy and you need to give in to the whole thing. Being unproductive as I was in past few days, things piled up, I needed to done-check a few things from my "to do" list first, so that I can properly commit to that resume of mine in the near future. Hopefully the future starts tomorrow. :)
On the other hand, I played guitar for two hours and was pretty productive at both jobs.
However, the day ended stressfully, after all the information going trough my head.
I still fail to catch up with the schedule completely. I still struggle to have enough sleep. Routine is still a hassle, not an ease.
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